Thought for the day...

"It's not your fault you came into this with so much baggage, but it is your responsiblity to start unpacking it."

Oh, and this is what I look like this week...yikes.

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Hero?

A long while back, I bought a journal...this journal...

I thought the quote was inspirtational, and I had full intentions of writing in it.

Of course, I never did. I had ideas for what I wanted to do though. I was going through a phase at the time where I cut words and pictures out of magazines to make collages (which I also never made) and I thought it would be interesting to use them as inspiration. When I recently found this journal at the bottom of my junk drawer, I opened to the first unwritten on page and found a headline I had clipped, no doubt from Glamour magazine, that said "Who's Your Hero?" (I tried to take a picture of it, but couldn't get a good angle, and couldn't find a suitable replacement image on Google). I had fully intended on writing on the subject in that dang journal, but it never happened. Mainly because I realized I hate the act of physcially writing! Even though there is something terribly romantic about having an actual written record of my thoughts, I just can't focus...typing is much faster!

So who is my hero? I worry that I don't really have one. According to my MySpace, it's my sister, Jennifer. Which isn't really too much of a stretch, but my little sister admiration of her probably isn't the same thing...

Also according to MySpace, Chelsea Handler is my hero. HA! I even said this to somebody the other day. She's my 'hero' in that "Omg-she's-hilarious-and-my favorite-person-on-TV" kind of way, but not in a way that she's changed my life or inspired me to be a better person. Although I do love her sense of humor and would love to do that kind of work...if I only had the lady-balls to pull it off!

I guess I just haven't had that many people in my life who I've been in awe of...and I've always heard people talk about their heroes in awe. There are definitely people who I am extremely impressed and inspired by (like Jennifer...and our grandmother), authors/playwrights with works that exhaust me in the best possible way (Edward Albee, Richard Paul Evans {I could actually list more, but these are the first two that come to mind}), and teachers that introduced me to the things that have made me happiest in life (music and theater). But not one person who really stands out as being my Hero.

I always enjoyed history, but not for the specific people who were supposed to stand. I can't say that I know much individually about the 'big names' we learned about in school. I know the names, and I know ancedotal stories about them, but was always more fascinated with the actual stories of the unnamed soldies and families in the Revolutionary War, Slaves, the Holocaust, and those who went through the Great Depression.

I don't even have a Mentor. I kind of slipped through the advisory cracks throughout college. I did have some GREAT professors who I admired and got along well with, but nobody that I felt close enough to to really discuss what was going on with my education and journey as an acting student. Of course, I could have made more of an effort on this...I wonder now why I never did.

I don't know if it's a BAD thing that I don't have a real Hero, I just wish I had a direct answer to the question!

coping with a technological meltdown...

I think I've had the new power cord for my laptop for about a month now...and it's ALREADY fried! I'm posting this from my 8lackberry...and to think I almost cancelled my BlackBerry service last weekend! I'm far too dependent on my ability to connect to the internet any time I want to get rid of it, though, even if it is a little expensive. But this crappy cord better revive itself damn quick...I'm about to go apeshit on these fools who sent it to me!

February Resolutions

1) Write. Something. Every. Day. No excuses. Not necessarily here, but SOMEWHERE.
2) Start saving to visit Jen in Orlando in April! Mainly by spending less money on food...ya fatass! (haha)
3) Fully Prepare AT LEAST 3 monologues for future audition purposes. Record them. Show them to people.
4) Clean out car....seriously, Jana, it's ridiculous.
5) Do taxes.
6) Work out a little bit, ok? Seriously. And stop laughing. You're very serious about this!
7) Start reading regularly again.

Oh...

8) Don't forget/delete/give up on this list.