Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes...

Ok, so I suck at blogging.

But I'm revamping next week. I'm actually revamping my whole ding-dang life next week....wanna take a journey with me?

And if you threw a party...

I hate when I get tired before I'm actually ready to go bed. You know why? B/c I'll be SO tired and ready to sleep, but I have to wash my face first...and of course, the splashing of the water on my face wakes me up! UGH. Usually I'll take care of that before I'm even tired so that I can just get in the bed, play around on the internet, and watch some Golden Girls until I drift off. Lately though, I'm up until Cheers comes on...and while I used to watch Cheers, I'm just not feeling it currently...so then I try to find Family Guy...but that doesn't come on until 3 am so it's King of the Hill...which I also used to love, but (once again) just aren't feeling. I was falling asleep to American Dad DVDs for a while...maybe I should try that.

Is it sad that my life is governed by what's on TV? Probably.

Golden Girls is on right now. But I've seen this episode EIGHT HUNDRED TIMES since they moved to the Hallmark Channel. Not 800, but maybe 5...which is A LOT within a couple months...it probably doesn't help that I watch it when comes on in the mornings...sigh...

In case you were about to ask...yes, I am THAT lame.

I still hope I'm like these women when I'm old.

(and on a side note - my typing sucks. I can barely make it through a sentence without making a mistake...or 7. This bothers me more than seeing this episode where Rose loses her husband's pension and Sophia joins the bulk shopping club)

Another night that I won't be sleeping. There are several reasons...they are as follows.

1)I was up late last night, so I'm on that schedule.
2)It's hot as balls in my house. The AC was messed up (but I think it finally kicked in, and the house has gone from 86 to 84 degrees in the last 30 min)
3) A glass vase just fell off of my TV and broke (probably from the two fans I have blowing) and it scared the poop out of me
4)I have to be at work at 6am. Regardless of what sleep schedule I'm on, if I have to be at work that early, my body just won't let me.

But it's not like I've been sleeping well anyway. Stress? Probably. I went to my parents' house today to say Happy Father's Day to dad, and they were asking me about work and the show and life in general...none of my responses were particularly positive and my stepmom made a joke that I was depressed. Yikes. Didn't mean to bring the family down!

Btdubs, it's 82 degrees now! :o) Its set to stop at 76. COME ON!!!!

Good...night?

I am generally not opposed to sleep. In fact, I have been known to be big fan of it...I remember the days when I would take 3 hour naps...and sleep in every day possible...even recently, I hit the snooze button for an hour and a half. Luckily, I didn't have to be anywhere that day and had only set the alarm so that I wouldn't be lazy. Obviously, I failed.

The past couple of days, I have been ridiculously exhausted...but I'm in the middle of another movie binge and just don't WANT to go to sleep. (6 movies in 2 days...4 I hadn't seen before) Not to mention, all the internet I have to catch up on after not having a computer for a week, the books and plays I'm trying to read, the crossword puzzles I must complete, AND the new play I'm starting to write. Oh yeah, and I have to squeeze work and rehearsals in there too...Who has time to sleep? :o)

Stumbling upon inspiration...

So, my sister has created a monster. She introduced me to Stumble. You sign up and check off all these things that you're interested in, it installs a toolbar, and you just click on Stumble and it will take you to some random websites that you might enjoy...and enjoy them I do! You can then decide whether you like what it takes you to or not and give it a thumbs up or down and your preferenceds will adjust somehow so that it will take you to more of the stuff you like! Want an example?

I gave these a thumbs up (aka I Like It!)

Virtual Drum Kit
Creative Business Cards
911 For Writers

So see? Something fun to waste time, something practical AND inspiring, and something to keeep the creative juices flowing! Funny I used that phrase, b/c when I was getting that last link, I went ahead and pushed the '9' on the phone for a verb and it gave me squelch, with a picture of hand squishing a tomato! Tomato juices...creative juices...it's all the same, I guess!

It doesn't save the things I give the thumbs down to (of course), but some examples of that:

-Instructions on how to transfer music from your iPod to a computer (already know how)
-Pages of links to interesting sites (I'm already using something like that, why would you give me a page of the same thing?)
-Somebody's personal blog that had nothng to do with me (kind of like if somebody 'Stumbled' onto my blog...I would not be offended by their thumbs down..)

So yeah. Some things are REALLY cool and fun and some are just kind of ok...oh, and you don't have choose if you like it or not, you can just stumble again. I think it means you may see it again eventually, but it hasn't happened to me yet. Still learning. My only problem so far is thinking, "ooh, this is neat. I'll 'like' it and come back and really explore the site later!" Only I haven't actually gone back to maybe 5 of them.

The thing is, I'm trying to wean myself off of the same ol' silliness I'm addicted to...aka Facebook. I really enjoy the social aspect of it, but I'm seriously about to delete all the apps and stuff I have. It's just too distracting. I want so many things for my life, and right now I can't really go out very much (notice how my car fund hasnt' increased AT ALL?!?) so I want to fill my downtime with things that are more constructive and inspiring.

So if anybody knows of any FREE entertainment available in the area, please let me know! And I have some schemes in the work to CREATE free entertainment FOR the area...woo-hoo! The past couple of days have been life-loving days for me...I hope it sticks!

"You have succeeded in life when all you really want is only what you really need."
-Vernon Howard

Food.

I haven't been out to eat in about 3 weeks now. I spent $80 on groceries the day after my car 'died', and I have been eating from that stash ever since. This is a new experience for me, since before that, I was going out to eat at a sit-down place at least once a week and doing the fast food thing a few times as well. I've had a couple pig-out sessions (like when I ate my weight in ribs at my parents' house on Sunday) but for the most part, I've done pretty well about eating 3 meals a day, that were actually semi-balanced. I noticed that I get hungrier faster, b/c I'm actually eating the right amounts and my metabolism isn't being dragged down by all that fat and crap I'm usually pumping into my body!

Until today. Crystal and her mom went to Chilis yesterday and had burgers...they only ate half of theirs so they put both of the leftover halves and some fries in a box to bring home for me (They don't generally eat leftovers...which I find mind-boggling...). So i hate one of the halves and the fries for lunch today...and I'm STILL full. 6 hours later. Ugh.

So kudos to me for being semi-healthy and saving money...and...um...'opposite of kudos' to that burger that feel like a rock in my stomach. (But what a delicious rock it was...)

I'm sorry, blog...

...for neglecting you.

I have been a very uninteresting person lately and have had nothing to fill your pages with.

Well, this is not entirely true. My life is actually pretty interesting...it's just been more negatively interesting lately, and I really don't want to turn this blog into me bitching about all the things that are wrong with my life. Because lately...there's A LOT wrong...for example, notice the new Money Counter thing I have up there? Yeah, I need $2000 to fix my car...or find a car to buy that is cheaper than $2000. There are other bad things, too...but I'm trying this new 'positivity' thing...whatever that means! haha...bear with me...

So I promise too pay more attention to you, blog. I promise to turn the TV off more, and talk to you more so that we can improve our relationship, ok? How's that sound?

I love you, blog.