I was a little nervous voting today, since it was first time and I somehow thought it was going to be really complicated....haha....you know I like to make everything complicated. But it was very similar to going to the ATM....insert card, touch screen...take card out....done. Except I didn't get any money out...
Funny moments from my experience:
There was a box of clipboard w/ the voter forms in them at the end of the line. My clipboard didn't have a pen on it, so i pulled my own out to fill out the form. When the guy came down the line to take the clipboards back from people he asked for the pen back. I said "Oh, there wasn't one so I just used my own" And he said "Ok, just let me check that out." I was thinking, wtf? So I whipped the pen out to prove it...until I realized he was reaching for my form....he just wanted to make sure everything was filled out. I felt so dumb but I don't think he noticed...but the man behind me in line thought it was HILARIOUS, b/c he saw me whip the pen out! He even gave me little slap on the back as he laughed, like we were old friends!
The girl behind THAT man then looked at me and said "This is my first time voting, it's fairly easy isn't it?" I was like "Yeah!" even though I had no idea....
The girl behind HER then got on the phone with her dad for some chit-chat. She apparently works for a plastic surgeon and was telling him that their first patient yesterday had been there for a "Breast Aug"....I guess her dad didn't know what that was, so she repeated it a couple times, then had to cup her hand over the phone and whisper 'breast augmentation!" I almost died....
One of the ladies working to check peoples' registrations on the computer got mad that so many people were being let in at once and yelled "Don't send no more in here! We got no room! Don't send no more!" I had to catch the words "Don't send ANY more" before they popped out of my mouth....I'm sure she wasn't in the mood to have her grammar corrected.
Oh, and I think somebody made a love connection in line. They realized that they lived on the same street and homegirl was ALL over him after that...the guy behind them was encouraging it, and it was hysterical. Except that lady with bad grammar got mad that they weren't paying attention to the line moving and scolded them.
So it was a good experience. And funny.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Halloween Horoscope....not so scary!
October 31, 2008
Cancer (6/22-7/22)
Why spend all of your energy making other people happy? Today you have to switch your focus and start working harder at making yourself happy! Do at least one nice thing for yourself, today. Cancel a meeting you've been dreading, with no guilt. Take yourself out to dinner at your favorite restaurant. Skip making the bed this morning. Doing something for yourself every once in a while is not only a good idea, it's a smart idea. After all, you need to treat yourself well if you expect others to, too.
Ok, so I never make my bed anyway...and i don't have any meetings or work to cancel today....but I'll find something to do for me! Lord knows I need a pick-me-up right now....
I do feel better today, though.
Cancer (6/22-7/22)
Why spend all of your energy making other people happy? Today you have to switch your focus and start working harder at making yourself happy! Do at least one nice thing for yourself, today. Cancel a meeting you've been dreading, with no guilt. Take yourself out to dinner at your favorite restaurant. Skip making the bed this morning. Doing something for yourself every once in a while is not only a good idea, it's a smart idea. After all, you need to treat yourself well if you expect others to, too.
Ok, so I never make my bed anyway...and i don't have any meetings or work to cancel today....but I'll find something to do for me! Lord knows I need a pick-me-up right now....
I do feel better today, though.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Again...
I feel like my heart is cracking open...those wounds I have been so desperately trying to nurse and heal are opening back up, even as I try to hold them together. Those words that nobody should ever have to hear I have now heard twice.
"She killed herself"
Kelley's mom.
I don't even really know how I'm supposed to feel. I mean, after all, she said would do it. She tried it before. She encouraged Kelley into it. All the signs were there...so why is it still such a shock? Why does it still make me cry in pain? The way she was after Kelley, how awful she felt and wanted to make everyone else feel was enough to make me erase her from my memory forever. But after the initial grief...how sorry she was...how sweet and understanding....the e-mails she sent checking up on me, sending me those silly inspirational forwards...no matter how awkward they made me feel, it was also nice to know that she was still trying and dealing with her grief and living her life. But she couldn't really do that. She couldn't let herself live without her daughter.
What is that family going to do? How can they be put through this AGAIN??? It's barely been over a year....if my wounds haven't healed yet, they I can only imagine what it must be doing to them...
It just makes me so sad....the cycle...how strong you have to be to resist and fight the darkest of your thoughts and feelings. How some people aren't strong enough...no matter what anyone says or does, nothing makes it go away. It's scary b/c I don't know how you reach that point...when do your fears and worries cross the line into hopelessness? What is it that keeps you out of the darkness? How do you keep your head up when you lose the one thing you never thought you would? It's hard to not live in constant fear that it just won't get any better.
I guess I've been lucky. I know that my feelings of lonlieness are just that..feelings...it is not the truth. I am not alone. I have friends and family who love me and I know that I am truly blessed in what I have in my relationships with people...I am amazed DAILY by the poeple that are in my life. But I still get down...I still cry...I get so angry at life....I scream and I throw things....I cuss...I get mad and snap at people....and sometimes I feel like it's never going to get better. Of course, it always does. But those hard times seem to overshadow the good...at least over the last year. I don't want to get bogged down in the hurt. I don't want to feel guilty anymore. I know I shouldn't...I KNOW....but it still creeps in. It's a struggle. A daily struggle, but I know it's not always going to be this way.
I just want a break from it. I don't want to get anymore phone calls with bad news. I don't want to be that girl.
"She killed herself"
Kelley's mom.
I don't even really know how I'm supposed to feel. I mean, after all, she said would do it. She tried it before. She encouraged Kelley into it. All the signs were there...so why is it still such a shock? Why does it still make me cry in pain? The way she was after Kelley, how awful she felt and wanted to make everyone else feel was enough to make me erase her from my memory forever. But after the initial grief...how sorry she was...how sweet and understanding....the e-mails she sent checking up on me, sending me those silly inspirational forwards...no matter how awkward they made me feel, it was also nice to know that she was still trying and dealing with her grief and living her life. But she couldn't really do that. She couldn't let herself live without her daughter.
What is that family going to do? How can they be put through this AGAIN??? It's barely been over a year....if my wounds haven't healed yet, they I can only imagine what it must be doing to them...
It just makes me so sad....the cycle...how strong you have to be to resist and fight the darkest of your thoughts and feelings. How some people aren't strong enough...no matter what anyone says or does, nothing makes it go away. It's scary b/c I don't know how you reach that point...when do your fears and worries cross the line into hopelessness? What is it that keeps you out of the darkness? How do you keep your head up when you lose the one thing you never thought you would? It's hard to not live in constant fear that it just won't get any better.
I guess I've been lucky. I know that my feelings of lonlieness are just that..feelings...it is not the truth. I am not alone. I have friends and family who love me and I know that I am truly blessed in what I have in my relationships with people...I am amazed DAILY by the poeple that are in my life. But I still get down...I still cry...I get so angry at life....I scream and I throw things....I cuss...I get mad and snap at people....and sometimes I feel like it's never going to get better. Of course, it always does. But those hard times seem to overshadow the good...at least over the last year. I don't want to get bogged down in the hurt. I don't want to feel guilty anymore. I know I shouldn't...I KNOW....but it still creeps in. It's a struggle. A daily struggle, but I know it's not always going to be this way.
I just want a break from it. I don't want to get anymore phone calls with bad news. I don't want to be that girl.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
VOTE!
I've never been a politically aware person. All that 'junk' always went over my head. I just didn't get it. This is the first election where I actually started paying attention, and I think it's becuase I finally understood what somebody was saying. I was finally inspired and felt like I could stand behind somebody and what they were saying. I've always been embarrassed that I never voted...but I hated the idea of voting blindly...and I'm glad that I waited, and proud that I will be making the right choice FOR MYSELF.
I found this pretty inspiring, as a woman. I'm not a parent, and I don't know if I ever will be. I know I'm tired of hearing all this crap about the 'Hockey Mom', b/c even though I do know and respect a lot of mothers, I want to know how these candidates relate to the rest of us. I like how this doesn't just focus on mothers, but all women.
I found this pretty inspiring, as a woman. I'm not a parent, and I don't know if I ever will be. I know I'm tired of hearing all this crap about the 'Hockey Mom', b/c even though I do know and respect a lot of mothers, I want to know how these candidates relate to the rest of us. I like how this doesn't just focus on mothers, but all women.
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