Blahhhh

I. Don't. Like. Boys.

Especially when they tell me how awesome I am and that they are sorry it didn't work out for us back when there was an 'us'.

This just happened to me.

Ben, who i 'dated' for about 4 months last year contacted me on MySpace recently...just checking up on me, seeing how I was doing and what i was up to. I was like, WTF? Why? Especially since according to his profile, he has a girlfriend now. But whatev...I wrote him back, gave him my life update, blah blah blah.

I wrote him back...he wrote me back...I wrote to him again...this time mentioning that i saw he had a girlfriend now and all....

and today he writes to me, telling me that yeah, he's been with her for a while....then goes into his little apology to me for not treating me right, saying he was too caught up in his own problems at the time to give me the attention I deserved, and that he was too self-centered to realize how amazing I was...blah blah blah blah BLAH!

I can't even begin to tell you how many times I have been told this. Seriously. Every stupid effing boy I met in Columbus my last two years living there couldn't step up or make up their mind what kind of relationship they wanted with me...and the ones I'm still in contact with have told me that they 'wished it would have worked out'...

It's really exhausting, you know. Putting yourself out there for someone who isn't willing to do the same for you. And then being fed some bullshit line like that months later.

It doesn't help that this happened the day after I had a very long conversation about dating and relationships at work yesterday...so it's been on my mind...and I hate obsessing over the subject like this...but I'm sick and tired of being the 'silver medal'...

BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vent vent vent vent vent.